Confessions of an Insecure Mom

I’m doing my best.

I’m trying to care for my child the best I know how.  Aren’t we all?

I’m trying to raise him well, make informed decisions, love him to the very ends of my human limits. 

And somehow it’s not enough. 

And too much. 

All at once. 

The comments started the day he came home from the hospital. Or, more truthfully, the day I found out I was pregnant. 

At first, I appreciated different perspectives and anything off-colour just rolled off my back. 

  • Someone comments on the inconvenience of cloth diapers. Or chemicals in disposable diapers. 
  • Someone comments about back sleeping. Or tummy sleeping. 
  • Someone comments about the sun. And getting vitamin D. But don’t go in the sun, take a supplement. Wear sunscreen. Don’t wear sunscreen.
  • Someone makes a comment about how long I’m breastfeeding. Or not breastfeeding. Or breast milk causing cavities. 
  • Someone makes a comment that if I don’t vaccinate, he could die. Or that if I do, he could die. 
  • Someone makes a comment that he should be sleeping better by now. Or that he’ll sleep eventually so stop worrying. 
  • Someone says to use orajel for teething. Or that orajel is dangerous. 
  • Fans will make him colic. But that’s a myth.
  • Give him a soother. Don’t give him a soother. It’s too soon. It’s too late. It’s too long. 
  • Make sure you’re feeding him whole foods. Don’t waste your time with all those “fancy” foods.
  • Cry it out. Use a schedule. Don’t cry it out. Don’t schedule. Let him be a kid, do your thing. 

The list is almost limitless. 

And you know where this leaves me as a new mom after my first year? 

Incredibly insecure.  

insecure (adj)

subject to fears, doubts, etc.; not self-confident or assured: an insecure person.

No matter what I do. Or don’t do. I’m insecure.

No matter what I do. Or don’t do. I’m a failure.

But this problem is not an opinion issue. Or even an unsolicited-comment issue. 

This is a me issue. Why?

It’s internal. 

Insecurity is created by how I process the opinions and comments.  Not the comments themselves. 

It comes down to this one question: Where do I look for my security? 

And when I asked it, the answer was staring me in the face.

I look for security in unanimous, public approval. In being, and being perceived as being, a perfect mother.

How’s that for the worst place to look for personal security and affirmation, ever? 

I want to be a perfect mother. I want to do the right things. Feed the right foods. Teach the right stuff. 

I want to have meaningful conversations about parenting. I want to be knowledgeable about updated research and professional opinion. I want to trust my gut as a mother. I want to understand the whats and whys and hows. 

And I want to be open to learning. Always. 

And hey, if I’m feeding my kid KD for breakfast, lunch, and dinner thinking it’s the most nutritious meal ever, I want someone to encourage me otherwise. 

Can anyone relate? Am I all alone here?

I want everyone to like my mothering choices. I want everyone to support my mothering choices. 

But here’s the clincher.

If you don’t like my mothering choices, I must be a bad mom. 

Right? Wrong. 

We all know that’s wrong and we know that’s a lie. 

But it’s one I’ve been allowing to masquerade as truth for months now. 

And it’s left me incredibly insecure. 

So How Do We Overcome Insecurity?

Here’s what I’m learning...

  1. Be open-handed.

    I’m the first to admit I don’t know everything. But it’s easy to secretly think I do.

    Holding on to “my ways” so tightly that I have to harden myself to others’ input is just not healthy. And it’s an easy place to get to.

    To be open-handed in mothering means to acknowledge that, while I am doing the best I can with the information and resources I have, I don’t know everything. I may learn or discover something that causes me to change. And that’s ok. That’s good.

    This isn’t about lacking resolve. This isn’t about abandoning conviction.

    It’s just about admitting that we’re not all-knowing.  Because… we’re not. 😉

  2. Be curious.

    Ask questions. Seek to understand alternate opinions when they present themselves (judgment free).  We don’t have to agree with everything to ask thoughtful questions with the intention of understanding one another.

    It shows respect. And humility.

    And at the end of the day, we can respect one another without fully agreeing with one another.

    In fact, when we don’t, the world gets ugly pretty quick.

    Curiosity keeps us learning, keeps us humble (putting others above ourselves) and allows us to respect one another.


  3. Be discerning.

    What lies are you believing? Identify them.

    One of the great mentors in my life says we need to “clean out our truth drawer” regularly.

    We all have one.  A drawer full of things we have decided are true.  But sometimes stuff gets into it that isn’t true.

    “I’m a bad mother if someone doesn’t agree with something I’m doing” is one of the lies that got into mine.

    What are you keeping in your truth drawer that shouldn’t be there?  How is that affecting you?

  4. Be perceptive.

    Look for the big picture.

    What matters most in the big scheme of thing?

    Honestly, I don’t know how to do this without Jesus. To me, this is the most critical piece of all.

    If you’re not a Jesus follower, that’s ok.  This is why I follow him…

    Jesus’ love and hope is my big picture. He is the perfect that I am not. And he loves me (and you).

    When life is beautiful and when life is tough, that perspective changes everything.

    I’m going to fail as a mother sometimes. My boy doesn’t have a perfect mother (try as I may). And in a powerful message from Andy Stanley, I was reminded “there is a perfect that I am not.”

    That perfect is Jesus, my Heavenly Father, making me new. He is loving my family unconditionally. Where my human capacity ends, God’s doesn’t. He gives me strength where I am weak, and He loves my family in ways I can’t.

    Whether I’m eating organic, wearing toxic sunscreen, breastfeeding in the night or letting my boy chew on my cell phone… I’m a work in progress. And that’s OK. Because “the Perfect that I am not” loves me, is with me and is making me new.

    And HE is my ultimate security.

Friends that wrestle with similar insecurities, what have I missed?

How do you guard against insecurity?


Sarah according to Justin – brings a kindness, compassion and empathy to every conversation she finds herself in. She has a remarkable gift for reaching out and leaving others better than when she met them. She’s also a devoted, patient, and loving wife and mother with a passion for seeing God’s love realized in this world.


  1. Vanessa

    Sarah, you nailed it! In a world where information is too readily available and where opinions are loosely given without extra thought, being a Mom is tough! Numerous times a day I think I’m a horrible mom. When I realize she’s had a poopy diaper for too long, or she’s crying as I change her, or she’s over tired because we needed groceries and it’s passed nap time – there’s too many scenarios to count. Almost 7 months into being a mom I’ve realized that we don’t build each other up. We are so critical of what other parents are doing. They say it takes a village raise a child and I couldn’t agree more, but sometimes those opinions sting. I can 100% relate to everything you’ve said. And I’m so thankful there’s a heavenly Father that we can lean on, that can love when we can’t and give us hope when it feels like there’s no way out (or not enough coffee). Thank you for being vulnerable and raw in this blog. You truly are doing an amazing job with Isaac!

  2. Joy

    Sarah. There is no set of rules that are perfect. You are an awesome mum and Isaac is the happiest baby I know. We have all done and will continue to do what is best for our own family. Try not too judge what others do. Bringing up a happy polite mannered little one is the job. Along with all the challenges of life. No can ask for more. Hugs

  3. Sarah

    Thank you both for your sweet comments! <3

    1. Mom

      I would encourage all moms to RELAX! Have FUN and enjoy your little ones! The time really does go soooo quickly even though it doesn’t feel like it. All children are different but all need love and boundaries. This comes naturally from you through your own life experiences. I love saying ” just go with it”.
      Go with your God-given instinct as a mom. Remember the greatest of these is LOVE. You’ve got this honey!
      If all else fails call Gramma!!! ❤️

  4. Rose

    Good comments Sarah! Thanks again for your honesty. You are a wise and wonderful mom. One of the best pieces of advice I got before i was ever pregnant (and now I have 4!) was “don’t judge another mom”. Just-don’t-judge-her. If all moms could do that (me included!) we would be off to a good start

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